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Long ago my worth was dependent on how you treated me

My happiness upon when you would see me

I always knew I was kind, I was good

Eventually I got used to your carelessness

And selfish nature

And accepted it as true

You knew I cared for you more than most

You took my good heart and crushed it by the weight of your hurt

Said it was hard to love me

But what I realize now, I deserve so much more

Than how you ever treated me; I am kind, I am loved, I am divine

A feminine heart in her truest form is not only kind, but honest with herself

Maybe deep down I over extend myself

For people who don’t make me feel whole

Because I know they could never give it to me

But then why do I always feel so unhappy?

Why are they never living up to these small standards?

I put my heart into everything I do, yet you can’t even give me the bare minimum

Are my standards to high?

Or am I genuinely not worth it?

A small text, a good morning

But you won’t even commit and that’s fine I get it

But at some point I hope you remember me

And know what makes me happy

It would be so much easier to run from this

If I wasn’t so invested in what I knew we could become

Every time I think of you it makes me want to run

The traumas, the triggers and a fear to displease you

It causes an internal dilemma

In fear that I would lose you

So I keep them to myself and run and run and hide

But the more that I run, the more I know I can’t leave you behind

Il try to keep silent so I don’t make you upset

It’s at the expense of my own self respect

My home was always you

Inside it was warm and new

One day my home burnt down

And you left and went to a new town

To build your home with someone new

I used to feel so safe with you

I used to wish you saved our home

Maybe it was something you had outgrown

One day you’ll look back and realize it was a palace

Our roots run deep to that of a thallus

I know you’ll never forget what one was

Once you wake up your life will unpause

As you placed your hand in mine

It seemed we transcend the grasp of time

Shiver right to the bone

With you I don’t feel so alone

The taste of love sweet like honey

A drop of you makes the day so sunny

I know I’ve grieved without your touch

But don’t be fooled, It was what I craved so much

As you laid your hands on me

Did it hurt you as I screamed for you to stop?

Did you feel anything in your cold bones

That made you realize you were being wrong

Clearly you didn’t understand

Since you didn’t listen to my voice

At what point is it right to hurt me?

The answer would be never

But you’re a different breed of evil

Staring at the autumn sun

The lights have dimmed and hearts go numb

The warmth within your eyes has not faded

A feeling only could be described as saudade

The leaves will fall and will fall fast

The difference is our hearts will last

We don’t feel like regular people do

Our souls combined, I’m stuck on you

As I lay underneath the stars tonight

The only thing I can picture is you and I

A place where you and I used to be

As still as I remember it

And I think to myself

There is no one more perfect for you than me

There is no one more perfect for me than you

You are where I’m supposed to be

Nothing in this world could lead me astray

Not even a thousand stars in the sky or

A million miles away will separate our energy